总在夜深人静时才有心情写些什么，都是多愁善感的错。

SPM结束也有一段日子的, 往者不可谏, 感觉不怎么好, 也不怎么坏, 希望幸运女神眷顾我, 考个不错的成绩吧! 大概全A+就好了 :D

12月12号1.00am, 先祝我的挚友刘宏益先生生日快乐, 年年有今日,岁岁有我们陪你过生日, 7年之内完成医学学位, 凯旋归来. 生日在假期的好处就是每个人都吃饱闲着可以帮你庆祝, 还可以在Boulevard想mission, 寻生日蛋糕之旅.

12月11日7-9pm在food and tea和他们狂欢的一整夜, 和他们在一起, 很舒服很自在, 整间餐厅都是我们的喧哗笑语, 惹得侍应生都在一旁偷笑.

有时写blog只想写一半,不想写到完, 还想保留些什么, 不想被别人完全看穿.

考华文前,把概述练得太好,现在都在概述, 下一篇应该友情篇与梦想篇, 拭目以待吧!

Trial 2 was officially ended yesterday! *Hooray!* ( For that moment only ).

Well, today is an ordinary school day again. 18 Oct, 2 months more to finish 2011, 3 weeks more to graduation day, then SPM. I'll definitely miss my school, my friends, and everything in CH once i step out from this place. However, I look forward to my college and university life more! and friends, after graduation, we are still going to be life-long friends, so don't worry! :)

Got back my Biology, History and Wen Xue papers today :S mood spoiler huh? Erhmm, at least i 'smell' some improvement! :) I still made some stupid mistakes, but i believe that I can do much more better in SPM! :D

Officially 26 days to SPM. Going to start my so-called intensive revisions! and do wish me luck! I'm going to achieve record-breaking results. Wait and see!

Maybe, from todayy, till the day SPM is finished, i won't online anymore?

I went for a scholarship interview yesterday, and the interviewer is from Sunway College. During the interview, i talked about my dream and ambition with her. And she asked me, what if i fail to get the result i expect to get, and can't study dentistry that i so eager to go for now. And i tell her, i will have many options to achieve my dreams.

Having an extra option is never a problem, but the problem is, i always think that even though i am not doing well in this exam, i can't go prestigious college or uni, i can go those so called 'OK OK de UNI'. and get a dental degree from there.

And of course, i didn't tell her that. i just told her i will go for matrix or STPM, and go local u for my dental degree and go for my master overseas.

This sounds nothing wrong right. Things just went super wrong.

Had my Wen Xue exam today, few hours ago, i fucked it again. ):

i wrote in my notebook, the target for wen xue, 100.

but to be honest, i don't really feel that i can get it. not the questions are superb hard, i just didn't prepare well. and this let me think of what i had always done. i do everything just like 'half bottle of water'? the feeling isn't nice, at all. And i know that, with this type of result i got, i can never go for my dream. definitely.

And i know that it's haven't too late. For me to start my engine? perhaps.

And i am now open my blog, let everyone to see my promise. I will definitely reach my goal, achieve my dream, laziness and procrastination, off please.

Best of luck to everyone too!

其实我们没有想象中的要好, 只是都在逢场作戏罢了.

这世界不是谁少了谁就会怎么样,

明天的太阳还是会照常升起.

最重要的是: 今天要比昨天过得更好 :D

it's damn AUGUST tomorrow :( time is flashing. what to do? move faster than the time! :D

i actually do enjoyy the time to compete with time, stay late at night to finish my tons of revisions, but what stopping me is my health problem. uhh i dont want to have headache frequently during day time, and of course, damn panda eyes. nah pimples on my face is also a problem, i dont want to end up like my sweetheart aaron ahaha! his pimples are so terrible :X

it's the time to think about my future, my ideal pathway is Chung Hua > Taylor's > Uni in Sg or UK! Wow dreammm! i knew that studyy law isnt an easy task but i will just try my very bestt! :)

I like many ppl's blog very muchh! especially our seniors! their life are so damn perfect, rich, nice looking, have good results, they have everything that everyone eager to have.

nahh i have many excellent friends around me, you know who you are. :) they will always be my target and motivation to go on. i will study really hard, to be as smart, excellent as you guys. :)

YELLO! :D

*straight to the point*

Uhh. i found that humans are weird. we'll never appreciate what we have, what and how people care of and love us. for example, we used to love and care the people who ignore us always, but ignore the person who love us the most. natural phenomenom?

nah! start from todayy, im not going to sms the person who ignore my msg! what damn relationship between all these? idk, idc.

HAHAHA im not getting tired of being weird, i look forward to the last 130+ secondary school life, with those i love. and for those bastard(S) BYE BYE! :)

i hope i can have a pet dog, i mean puppy :D, or bunny!

HERH im going to record down my result this time. As i didn't achieve what i want to get, i failed, i sucks.

BM :( A-

BI :/ A

M3 :) A+

SJ :/ A

PM :'( A-

Chemistry :) A

Physics :( A

Biology :'(((! B

Add maths :( A-

Chinese :( A

Wen Xue :) A+

从另外一个角度看，十个A一个B，还不错。但是如果要成为医生律师或牙医，这些成绩就跟大便没什么两样。总是比上不足，比下有余。我不要成为衡量优秀和平庸的学生的中间点，因为这并不好受，虽然我知道我是。

容易满足的人不会成功，我认同。

眼睁睁的看着身边的人一个一个的在进步，而我只在原地踏步。醒醒吧！下一次如果不努力就会被别人追过，我是这么相信着。我没有俗称什么保证你拿到好成绩的补习，也没有惊人的意志力，更比人懒惰。但，

下一次，我不会再把自己的脸往地板上踩。

我的朋友做得到的事，我一样做得到！

下一个年代即将来临，而领导者，会是我们。

每个人都有自己的生活,你不能期待谁会永远陪着谁.

当某人忽略你时,不要介意,他们也是人,有自己的生活要过

我不喜欢现在的生活，

不喜欢现在的自己，

但愿有破涌而出的那一天，

不再那么没用那么lifeless.

Uhh! life is so boring after all :( im so lifeless atm!

HEEE! gonna lock my blog soooon! those who are concern you may ask for permission through facebook or whatever and i will still consider! :P

recently i found out many things. i read tons of people's blog. and i realize that they are honest, or brave to write out what they're thinking what're their opinion. and im now here fake up myself writing so 'surface' thing.

Nahhh im going to try to express my everything here too! :) but will set as private hohoho! i dont really like people to stalk about me but me myself just like to do so. Ummm. :P

and and and one more week to school reopen! then it's the time to receive my bloodyy exam paper hmmm im not worrying about that. it's not trial or spm. whatever! hahaha!

*我不想永远都只是这样*

两个礼拜的考试过了,考得怎么样,心里自然清楚明白.到成绩出炉时,有种现象又会发生. 比上不足,比下有余.每次考试时,我总会帮自己分配每一课该用多少时间来读,每一次的计划,99%都不会达到计划的成果.这就跟我的人生一样.

十七岁三个月,每次每天每件事我只能做到好,没能到很好,最好!宿命吗?也只能怪自己懒懒散散的性格,得过且过的态度.因此在那一都不能给别人看到最好的自己.

我的将来也会是这样吗?目标是全科A,会不会在SPM里别人拿到全A+,我也只能拿全A?

貌似王彩华的B咖人生.不,我不甘就此屈服.

山坳上的人生,有人明白吗?

总有一天我会冲破这宿命，成为一人之上，万人之下的那一个！

LIFE is so stressful recentlyy. but beside that everything run smoothly. tsk tsk tsk im going to write ppl i used to hate alot! Grrr, they're so-called offenders in our school. She is a girl, hmmm form 3, i dont know where the hell she get her confidence from to walk so proudly in front the prefects and sometime, purposely offences us. hmmm im not saying about the one my friends and i used to say everytime. but she's one of her friends. yucks you're so fugly you just cant see the truth! well, stop here. dont want to curse her anymore. LALA im going to graduate 6 months more then im free from those eye-sore. HURRAY!

话说在SPM考试中华语科想拿A+比英文难得多,所以呢在blog这里也要好好利用这里来训练华文书写能力.

首先呢,我不管你喜不喜欢我写的东西同不同意我写的东西呢我都不在意.我的blog又不是靠你过日子为什么要从你口中得到你那令人期待令人不屑的天下无与伦比之赞语呢?不针对谁吧我可能说你你还是您,不管啦!

又发现了如果我要用华语写什么东西会变得很罗嗦写出来一点重点都没有,很多句子都喜欢加'呢'~

ALARH~ back to normal. eii actually i want to have college life very much. i envy those who study foundation a level sam at taylor's sunway monash inti of whatever. i just dont want to study freaking 11 subjects now and almost half of the subjects is not related to what i want to be next time. OPPS actually i dont know what i want to be too :S

and i realize that im a super pro stalker :P i used to read every single status in my news feed lol doesn't matter i know you or not(as well as i add you or accept) HAHAHAHA and i used to predict what happen after that. HEHEH it's fun actually and when you know that what you think is right you will feel super proud of it YAYY!

Prince William and Kate married todayy! or i should say now! their wedding ceremony are just like what will only happen in a movie. Well, he is a PRINCE. LOL next time the whole england is his i think?

i just use to update to see my blog link is on the 1st few one in friends' blog list haha! and it's always so crappy as usual. bo bian it's my life and what i do everyday is only sleep and read books. 199 days to SPM and 13 days to sem1 exam!

HOWEVER i promise myself today is my recharge day so i can enjoyyy as much as i can! LALALA! BYEH

ANOTHER tiring day! :( i need 48 hours in a day! nowadays i only can sleep for 5 hour(MAX) per day! D: not included nap on afternoon (should be long sleep!) :P

ehem actually i like this kind of life but i only scare my body cant tank till exam. duh
however,
IF this is the only way to get flying colours in exam, i dont mind!

tons of things can happen in a day. dont expect that ppl will look after you or give an unlimited helping hand. even though you two are what so-called BEST FRIENDS. LOL i dont mean any of my all dear friends here,(and only if you're), just example hehe. :) i dont mean to be offensive and that's only my opinion! and those things dont happen on me thanks God!

LALALA im now tired till can fall asleep in the next seconds but feel simply want to blog. TATA :D

have a nice day! :)

HOLYY! 19 days to sem 1 exam and yet i did nothing revision :(

i hate myself for being so lazyy!

and it's the time for coffee, panda eyes and study late.

i hate this kind of life.

有时候两个人天天在一起，不一定是朋友，还可能什么都不是。

（http://onlyyou.katelove.net/)

很有趣的一句话。

小学时的朋友，不一定是中学时的朋友

中学时的朋友，不一定是大学时的朋友

大学时的朋友，也不一定是人生中的挚友

17岁又16天大，有些事是时候看清了

即使一个人，也要骄傲地走下去。

我不介意做有刺的玫瑰，

至少它美丽地绽放过

:')

HEEE :) will start my driving lesson tomorrow! im excited about it!

心情不好也不坏，只是听了看了别人的心声，也没了什么好心情。

我不是个会满足现状的人

我有了这个，我还会想要那个

我也不是个很出色的人

却永远不甘屈指于绿叶

天生矛盾混合体。

自己当然知道我不是个当医生律师的料

只是想争一口气

一人之下，万人之上

我会成为我想成为的那个人。

HAHAHA here im again! :)) it's the election dayy! and that's why im here talking crap tying nonsense. hehe.

emm, as a mirian you cant tell that you dont know news or anything about state election. and the hottest topic now is the political talk every night. LOL and on the next day you will see the pics about it showing that there are 10 thousand plus ppl flooding the place (idk) on newspaper. :S

AHAH! actually i dont prefer any "parti-parti" but i also cant deny that DAP is damn hot NOW! as you know i will treat this kind of thing none of my business hehe i was lazy to gossip those thing. ahah!

AND recently i hate fb those freaking invitation what free 550 credit -.- sot i dont even need it! :P heheh facebook is useful for communication but not gaming. blahh!

count down 31 days to sem 1 exam, and it's the perfect time to start tons of revisions now. i do like exam actually, but i hate there're many annoying stuff that irritate me, making me cant concentrate blah blah blah.

i do compete and comparison, im not a person who can like, better than last time, it's okay. i got lots of friends who pro in studies, i want to be like them, ahha but the gap seens too large for me. at least, follow their footsteps of improvement.

everyone is working hard now, so you must work even more harder than them in order to be an outstanding student. weeheee. i love to challenge myself and i cant accept failure now. :S

duhh i dont know what am i typing now. im obviously stressed out. byehh!

i know i suppose to do my history homework now instead of blogging but i just control myself. LOL hey i just realize that almost (not all) of my good friends now are stressed out for the coming spm exam. same to me, but i just cant face my books months before the exam. im a seriously last minute person. and i realize something that the reality is cruel. many ppl have great dreams in their life, they want to be a doctor, dentist or whatever and go overseas to study, but economic problem doesn't allow them to chase their dream easily. hmmph, another problem is we are still so young, we dont know what job or course suit us the most. we may like something, like biotech stg, but reality tell us there are too less jobs related to biotech nowadays. you like it, you do it, but you cant get high paid. but if you do something you dislike (or i should say we dont really prefer it) but you can earn lots of money from it, which one you will choose? i choose the 2nd one. LOL this is life! so crappyy! pn bhal's homeworks ARE killing me! 3 essays more to go! :X

HELLO peeps. i want to share something i used to face almost every school day in CH. that's, i dont know whether those drivers who pass by the traffic light in front of the school are blind, or they have vision problem. i dont mean all of them, just some! hey i dont expect you to stop whenever you see students wanna walk across the road, at least! please, follow the traffic light's instruction. GREEN mean GO! RED mean STOP! lol. it is kinda dangerous kayy and if some students just see the traffic light turn green and go (for walker), but you just drive like there is no traffic light, what will happen? we cant expect what happen next second. it's so terrible. and i found that there are some squid(s) on the road. i just saw one just now. LOL the black smoke got out from his car and he drive kinda fast, and we can only suffer the carbon monoxide there like a wood. -.- whatever im not a traffic police, i just want to share something hehe. dont blame me if you're one of them! byee! going to take a nap :D

i feel like wanna blog so much now. i dont know why LOL i got so much thing to say, so much to tell but i dont know what to start.

hmmph okay i used to read lots of people's blog around, here and there, doesnt matter i know you or not, ( for sure mostly are CH-an ). i love to know the way ppl talk and live. i want to know how their life are different from mine, and what they're thinking of.

BUT, when i read more their posts, im feeling like my blog posts are kinda lame or whatever, and my life is so boring compare to them. im so lifeless. i love their blog design, layout or anything, but i just dont want to be a copycat. :X

random post. it's time to off! form 5 life is terrible, and im still bloody lazyy! i must force myself to swallow everything before every single exam. i did this promise months ago. but i failed

假期时最幸福的是就是可以早睡晚起.

*以弥补考试时不眠的日子*

现在短期的目标:

1. 每天11点之前上床睡觉

2. 增肥

3. 身体健康,不生病!

:)

Listen to the song here in my heart

A melody I start but can't complete

Listen to the sound from deep within

It's only beginning to find release

9.0 的地震有多强？10公尺高的海浪有多高？

没有亲身经历永远不能体会。

是时候感恩，你所居住的地方没有海市蜃楼，没有繁荣经济(?)

至少也不会有那么严重的天灾,

人祸却是不少.

日本人真的很厉害,

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现在全东京电话都不能用，只有网络。所有人这时候都在走路回家，电车瘫痪。日本人只担心没食物。店长还很敬业的开店，怕大家没食物吃。只有超市关门，货物都倒了，无法营业。
** 几百人在广场避震完毕，整个过程，无一人抽烟。服务员在跑，拿来一切毯子，热水，饼干。所有男人帮助女人，跑回大楼为女人拿东西 ，接来电线放收音机。几个小时后，人散，地上没有一片垃圾。
** 地震後，日本三得利公司宣布所有販售機將免費供應飲料！日本的711和全家全部免费提供食品和饮水！渴了，自动贩卖机免费；饿了，便利店免费；累了，大超市开放避难；寂寞了，公众电话免费；听不懂日语，电视台中文喊话教怎么避难。這就是國家形象，日本雖然受災，日本人卻給世人上了一課。
要是换做大马人 不知...

日本人加油吧!

我们都是有梦的人.

不间断的努力,

还是不能不努力?

因为我们还没有幸运到不需要努力也能得到想要的东西.

实现梦想最美好的地方,

是在这路上

你会遇到志同道合的知己

逐梦,努力,梦想成真

祝愿:成功

现实与梦想有多远的距离?

有些事不是努力就办得到的,

不过没有努力就永远办不到

:')

我忘了只能原地奔跑的那忧伤

我也忘了自己是永远被锁上

不管我能够陪你有多长

至少能让你幻想与我飞翔

尽得大责任,就得大快乐;尽得小责任,就得小快乐.

人生无时无刻都活在无穷无尽的责任当中.学生努力学习,是学生的责任;爸妈载你去学校,是父母的责任;老师努力教导学生,那也是老师的责任.

有时一昧地把过多的责任扛在身上,只会把自己压得喘不过气来.

form4 + form5 = 神精病

我就是喜欢变成神经病,怎样? HAHA

农历新年，黑皮兔耳！

不懂是因为年纪大了还是自然现象，对新年没什么特别的憧憬。

新年而已嘛，没什么

不过还是很喜欢这种气氛，迎新送旧。

有点期待午夜十二点时满空烟花的情景。

*没想到我还是那么地小孩子*

最近发现了一个好玩的东西。

如果有什么新年祝贺的msg可以send给那些看不懂华语的香蕉们，

他们看不懂，就会以为你send什么东西给他们

然后你可以随便编写故事来骗他.

(应该很少人懂我再讲什么) -.-

whatever la~

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! :D

January, 2011.

1/2/2011, 人生的第十六个年头又十个月.突然有点写回忆录,最近让人烦的事很多,很怕自己只记得烦人的事,不记得该记得的事.

最近蛮喜欢的一句话 :

如果你说我是梦想家,我会证明给你看我是梦想实践家

回想着个月做了什么事,只记得bio和sj小考应该靠得没眼看,很不喜欢这样的感觉

promise了的事情又做不到,活在世上还有什么意义 >.<

有时候又不喜欢那么悲观,人生嘛,有什么大不了的.

新年将近,应该说是两天后,

想做个好孩子,捉蛇的习惯还是没变,不过该做的还是有做到.

很random,最近会为了身边很小的事开心.

-真的很random的post-

一个人,遇到多么大的困难也好,

他都能够度过,

并不是 他够坚强.

而是他有最要好的朋友.

Life is really wonderful, but we fucked it up

迷失,迷雾,谜一样的你.

背叛者

吗?

双面人,双面刃.

我自认不是什么阴险狡猾的人,

人不犯我,我不犯人.

除非你真的使人神共愤.

戴着面具做人?

至少我做不到,

被别人骂了几十次:不要这么笨.

至少我曾经相信你,

赤裸裸的把我很任意的天马行空,

毫不掩露,一一写在脸上.

笑里藏刀,你很成功.

因为我曾经相信你.

即使就像你所说,我们没有什么深交.

但我知道了,知道的可能比你还多.

可能你很单纯,

做你觉得对的事

不过,

可能你不知道,

我什么都知道.

我不想做到太难看,

我没你那么厉害,

人海攻势?

很可惜,

你影响不了我,

甚至可能还帮了我.

你对我唯一的影响,

就只有帮我认清我的朋友.

多谢.

从今天开始,我会戴着面具做人.

你教我的,

我一一领教.

HYPOCRITES,

FUCK OFF FROM MY LIFE

1. [777]讲到你真的是几天几夜都说不完，哈哈！难得会信任别人的我看中了你这种大嘴巴！不过认识这么久真的没有讨厌过你，form1例外拉，还小的我们就是比较欠扁，就是欣赏你勇敢追梦的勇气，讲话的方式，和不局限于框框的思考方式！你有做谐星的天分！还有狗仔队的潜力~ hahaha! 其实我觉得我很幸运有你这个朋友！只是不要常常称赞你，要不然你的鼻子不懂会高几寸！顺便眼袋不懂跌哪里！XD 不要小气阿，写到这边应该全部都懂你是谁…哈哈！珍珠王万岁！:P

2. mr/miss 1 . hey ! you know a lot of gossips but you're willing to share them ! i super like. haha. you're a really nice person , serious :) glad to know you lor . ehh, we didnt get the scholarship but nvm ! go for your dreams and beat those you dont like :DD haha ! jian ren ! jiayou jiayou :) just be yourself !

3. ‎1. know you from form1.. you're lasap, funny, 38 and ***!! we're good from form1 and now we become more good.. good unyill become your babe.. -.- and nice when we all of the ham 38 together.. XD and i know you have a great dream.. haha.. hope you can make it.. =) btw.. Happy New year =)

4. １．不懂是不是跟你八字不合．３天一小吵５天一大吵．认识你９年

了，是不是这么衰哈哈．你不要在半夜跑来message人，没有reply就misscall．真的觉得跟你熟到可以吃了．懂你从小就很吱喳这种坏习惯到现在还是没有改变-.- jiayou la future doctor :P

5. mr 1, I knw u wanna be the 1st one but you can't!! XD honestly you changed a lot :)) You are a nicer person now and taller too ><>

6. mr/miss 1~ although sometimes ur mouth very jian, but at least u wont backstab. even if u r backstabbing some1, i believe tat d person wont be me~ ^^ its nice to hav u owez msg with me when im bored, although 90% ar fei hua.. haha.. glad tat i hav a fren like u.. hmm.. seem like u r by my side most of the time when i cry.. is lucky or unlucky har? =.= hahax..

7. mr 1, dun hao lian wo if say good thing..xD..emm, not really know ya but u'r a satellite! I just know why, cause you'r one of the 8 gua and ham family..xD..i see you quite good looking wo...haha..and extremely talkative..lols jia you SPM next year..haha

8. I HAOLIAN ONE , giv me 1 :X 1, u're the most talkative, smart guy i ever seen O_O Although sumtimes u realli talk very qianda, but ur studies realli good leh~ Ma derrr ~ =P I still rmb we bcome close when i kena jerk dump. TQ for being such a best fren ~ So frenly, so jija , so smart, so talented, so pro in Chinese, so many mre etc :)) Although sumtimes very beitahan u, but hu ask u so genq, 不得不佩服啊！ Frens 4ever ! ♥

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你这个gossip king~在去年的concert知道你这个人时，觉得你很会讲话和jio人，认识后原来你是输我的。后来slad orientation一直叫我去你的组！还好我没有去..=P... 之前很长sms咯~而且塞了很多秘密在你那里(应该eh),虽然你是个大嘴巴，但你还会帮我藏秘密哦！佩服..=P..觉得你这个人除了38以外，其它的应该都okay咯！佩服你在课业上的bia力！还有对不起那时把你骂哭了！对不起没有想到你的感受！还有对不起我的敷衍！别忘了你欠我的东西！！！..=DD

10. 2.Hmm. Been in the same class with you for about 3 years. To me, you were, okay.. a good friend. I still remembered last time during form 1 how they used to say your handwriting very nice :) xD got to know you better this year :)

十年如一如,二十一世纪的第一个十年就过了.新的一年,期许又有新的开始,新年愿望:心想事成!