Maybe, from todayy, till the day SPM is finished, i won't online anymore?

I went for a scholarship interview yesterday, and the interviewer is from Sunway College. During the interview, i talked about my dream and ambition with her. And she asked me, what if i fail to get the result i expect to get, and can't study dentistry that i so eager to go for now. And i tell her, i will have many options to achieve my dreams.

Having an extra option is never a problem, but the problem is, i always think that even though i am not doing well in this exam, i can't go prestigious college or uni, i can go those so called 'OK OK de UNI'. and get a dental degree from there.

And of course, i didn't tell her that. i just told her i will go for matrix or STPM, and go local u for my dental degree and go for my master overseas.

This sounds nothing wrong right. Things just went super wrong.

Had my Wen Xue exam today, few hours ago, i fucked it again. ):

i wrote in my notebook, the target for wen xue, 100.

but to be honest, i don't really feel that i can get it. not the questions are superb hard, i just didn't prepare well. and this let me think of what i had always done. i do everything just like 'half bottle of water'? the feeling isn't nice, at all. And i know that, with this type of result i got, i can never go for my dream. definitely.

And i know that it's haven't too late. For me to start my engine? perhaps.

And i am now open my blog, let everyone to see my promise. I will definitely reach my goal, achieve my dream, laziness and procrastination, off please.

Best of luck to everyone too!